So I was excited all summer, I also wished it would end faster..because school is over and now I have to go to university. All this excitement had made me forget the most basic things, those things I felt when I was right there : in the moment.
Walking alone, confronting this messy world wasn't on the list. It's hard. I actually tried my best and I found few people there..but it's not what worried me.
When I was young I used to say I wanna become like this famous star, or go to that country alone, live alone somewhere away, that I wanna be a strong independent girl. Haha.. independent..a word with a lot of challenge. It takes a lot of time to be "that" girl. I woke up and I realised it's not now, it's really soon and I wasn't ready yet..I want to discover life step by step.
I live in a family where everybody loves eachother, we do everything together, we celebrate, we cry, we talk, we fight, we support eachother...I couldn't skip all that and go somewhere else just to study something I really feel it's not what I really want and what I was really made for.
Plus, being next of my friends makes me feel better and safe. I knew that I would like to challenge the world not alone. Not when my floor isn't still fixed. I feel lost...
But now, as I made the right decision.. by choosing what I've always wanted..Life has changed to the better....
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